U S to the A

This is the long awaited blog I have been meaning to write but haven't had the time to... until now. Oh & they take so long to write... but here we go.

A compressed busy week with Final examination, exam preparation, revision, Shane departing earlier (so include his packing, final bills to pay), packing and stress finally came to an end for the remaining months.

The last final exam was finally over and I could spend the night partying with my friends and packing for the dreaded 14 hour flight the next day to LA, but I couldn't wait. $5,000 shopping money, near empty luggage ready to be filled, plus I miss him and more than ever, I was ready for a holiday, a getaway.

L.A

"THE JOINT"

The long 14 hours of incommodious seating, neck cramp, bland food and discomfort took a descent in LAX airport. I spent the last hour on the flight dolling up knowing that Shane would be there to pick me up (cause you know, no-one ever looks good after a 14 hour flight unless they tried to... and I did. ha ha) and I wanted to present to him that THIS is what he's been missing. HAHA

I landed early, rushed through customs and picked up my luggage as it was one of the first because I was one of the last to check-in in Sydney, you know me. I was out in fresh air, out in LA, the rain was heavy and the morning was chilly, but 20mins went by, and my frustration slowly built up, I had no form of contact with any of them but only hoped they knew where to pick me up, but all subsided when I saw Shane amongst the crowd searching, I really missed him and I smiled to myself knowing he made an effort that morning to freshen up. We depart the airport in the pouring rain (you would think straight home, but no) through Boulevards/Highways to DISNEYLAND CALIFORNIA, when we arrived the sun came out, the rain stopped and the misty/dewy morning chills dissipated, the day was beautiful and I was greeted by majority of Shane's cousin and Uncles/Aunts.

I couldn't be happier, I was with my mister on the other side of the world at an amazing land of Disney, you know what happens there, tons of food, rides, laughters, photos, more rides and performances. Unforgettable.

10 Days in Los Angeles

3 Days Las Vegas BABY

"Shut up and put your money where your mouth is, cause I'm hung over and broke, get up and shake the glitter off your clothes now, that's what you get for waking up in VEGAS"

9 Days New York City / Time Square

"New York, this is where dreams are made of, there's nothing you can't do, now you're in New York..."

 Celebrating my 19th Birthday on the 8th Day

3 Days in San Francisco

"For those who come to San Francisco, be sure to wear some flowers in your hair, if you come to San Francisco, Summertime will be a love-in there"

-- I'm OUT, DEUCES --

Mad

...We're fighting this war, when both of us are losing, this ain't the way love is suppose to go

Knowledge is pain, that's why it hurts to know.

Everything gives me more the reason to love him more. He's so real.

Sometimes, the arguments are illogic, but the emotions are always so raw.

The way his tears makes me want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt him anymore. Yet, regardless if I love him, hate him, wish he would die or know that I would die without him, it matters not. Because once in my life, whatever he was to the world, he has become my everything. When I look into his eyes, travelling to the depths of his soul, and I say a million things without a trace of sound, I know that his own life is inevitable consumed within the rhymthic beatings of his very heart. I love him for a million reasons, no paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of the mind, but of the heart. A feeling, felt.

i love you

I loiter in a prestigious 5 star hotel cafe where I await for him to finish his shift during this high noon day, with a cup of earl grey tea I reflect on the journey so far from the start of the year. Impressed, I smiled and acknowledged my achievements so far.

I remember the end of last year while in Perth, I ambled across some park in the chill summer evening breeze ruminating on my new year resolution 'What was mine?', I mentally listed a set of goals, published it on this blog with the intention to review at the end of the year. Previous years of experience, my goals have either not been realistic or I didn't have the motivation to persevere to complete my goals of resolution. This year kicked off, with my university settled, shortly with a part-time job as a personal assistant and a boyfriend a month down the track.

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"...only 4 months since I've known you, but you matter so much to me... I'd give you my everything" I hear these words murmured as I stared into his eyes as he says to me "I love you" for the first time. A mixture of emotion sweeps me, unsure how to bear the apparent mien at the time. Expect the unexpected as I would always say, but that stunned me and I smiled to respond to him in the same manner. Four short months and I've fallen head over heels...

I love him.

1st February 2O1O

Shane's missus as of;

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♥

This however only temporarily releases my current stress. My mind, torn between two choices of two places and two lifestyles...

This dilemma is...

...inevitable.

2010

FRESH.


New Year Resolution
Commitment to a healthier lifestyle - Tone Body
Part-time Job
Study Hard and Party Harder
Reduce Tobacco Intake
Get car
What else.. ?