Dearest David Truong

AKA. DTP

i love you . & for your sake I think you should start studying & do me proud.

make sure you make lots of money, become rich & take me shopping

Don't think I forgot our plans! GRRRR 

HAAA I quote thee

"To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world"

<3

21 Questions + 29

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1) Do you think you're a serious person?
I know I can be, when I need to be.

2) Have you kissed someone in the last 2 weeks?
No, do cheeks count?
3)Whos the last persons house you went to besides your own?
Anastasia the FLOP
4) Miss someone?
Always
5) According to your ex, you are?
Oh what a fucking question! PLK, unfaithful, unforgivable, untrustworthy, naive & the list could go off the page
6) Do you tend to fall for people easily?
No. Tends to be very hard unless you are someone special
7) Do you like someone right now?
Yes *giggle* HAHA
8) Listening to music?
Yes, all the time. Don't go a day without it. Currently playing on iTunes Glenn Lewis - Fall Again
9) What are you doing tomorrow?
Reflection day & SHOPPING in the city. Need to get: Gucci bag, New shoes & Sunnies.

10) How have you felt today?
Upset, cheerful, hyper, inspired, depressed, emotional and spoilt!
11) What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
Dreaming, or drooling in my sleep.
12) Favourite colour?
Black & White (if that's a color). Otherwise all colors a nice depends on what though.
13) Do you tell your best friends EVERYTHING?
Everything? HAA Most things.
14) When was the last time you cried?
Crying was 3 nights ago, Click still gets me every time, tearing last night during HellBoy II. 
15) What is a difference between the last two people you kissed?
Person A a passionate affection, someone I was deeply inlove with; Person B was an accidental intimacy under the influence of alcohol. HAHA

16) What’s the colour of the shirt you are wearing?
Black
17) What did you do on Sunday?
Shit, that was last week, can't remember that far back. Poker all night I suppose?
18) Do you have any bruises?
NONE! Zilch!
19) What were you doing at noon yesterday?
Sleeping?
20) Are you gonna be home alone tonight?
Not tonight =P
21) Have you been outside today?
Not yet, but I will be in about an hour =) wOoOo! Night is for living remember! HAHA
22) The last text you received was from?
T-String. 
23) What did it say?
Crap! Watcha up to now? Not still in the city anymore?
24) Last movie you watched?
Hell Boy II
25) Are you wearing pants?
Yup. My grey baggy pants
26) Are you wearing any jewelry?
My diamond studs. That's ALL!
27) Last person you hugged?
Carl.S

28) The last place you went to?

Cinema
29) Who/What made you upset today?
Thoughts.. of him
30) Do you sing in the shower?
HA of course, but usually just singing along to the music pumped
31) Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally?
Yes. Many times ^^
32) When was the last time you had a sleepover?
Does sleeping overnight in a car counts? Otherwise, before the last school holiday
33) Would you ever consider moving to another state to be with the one you love?
Even considering another FUCKING country. =]
34) Who are you in love with right now?
Ivan Tan. Stupid question leaves me with no choice. HAHA
35) Do you trust all of your friends?
I do to certain degrees, but I trust them all. But come to think about it, I should start selecting who I trust. 
36) Do you have a dirty mind?
THAT you'll have to find out yourself, depends who I'm with and who I'm speaking to =P

37) What colour are your bedroom walls?
Ivory-ish beige-y cream.
38) What should you be doing right now?
Getting ready to go out, homework-ing or something more productive.
39) Do you get along with your parents?
I would like to think so! HAHA But I love them bits and pieces. 
40) Are your parents divorced?
Nope. Only physically separated. 
41) Ever wanted to be a teacher?
NEVER EVER EVER EVER!
42) Ever been stuck in an elevator?
Like half stuck? Like for few minutes and it started to work again.

Stupid NB Carpark in Perth, actually I should blame the person. HAHA
43) What do your friends call you?
Cynthia, Blondie... Beautiful? HAHAH
44) First thing you notice in the opposite sex?
Dress style & any features that stands out. Then hair, height, body built, smile, teeth, arms, skin, eyes, bum HAHA etc. List goes on.. 
45) Anything you wish you could tell someone but can't?
Yes few people I wish I could tell them but can't. One person I can't because it won't make any difference.
46) Do you like clowns?
HAHA Don't really give a shit. They ugly shits.
47) Do you have feelings for anyone, and if so, do they know?
Yes I do, stupid shit if they didn't know. My affection are expressive. 
48) What are you looking forward to?
I Can't Wait To See You [HIM] Again. Holidays and all the upcoming events to Celebrateeeee!
49) Happy now?
Yes. 
50) If you got to kiss anyone in the world who would they be?
My must-be-sexy-drop-dead-gorgeous Prince, Soul-mate, partner, lover etc. HAHA Thats enough. HAHA 

Apple Bottom Jeans

FOC-U's

For people who haven't watched Hell Boy II would be scratching your head.

It just happened that Carl.S figured out what sounded like "FCK YOU's" was actually a mispronunciation of "FOCUS" HAHA x4 Hell Boy II was better than I expected so if you haven't seen it, worth considering.

So today I met a lot of people, old and new people. Woke up late and was asked to go for a coffee with JayQueen, LYing & her ❤, but by the time I got there JayQueen was starting her shift. So I headed to grab a English Breakfast from Starbucks. I absolutely love Starbucks.

So L.Y & her ❤ decided to head home & so I spontaneously decided to go check up the dance sessions and catch up with some buddies, but once I got there I decided to dance. I missed it so much & it was nice to know that I was missed as well. HAAAAA My Private Dancer is one of the best dancers @ the studio, he admitted he missed me and that I was the sexiest girl in the dancing class.. and no I wasn't the only one in the class =P there were like 10 girls in there & he said it in front of all of them! CHEYEAAAAAH =] Hell flattered. LOL

But going unprepared, dancing became very difficult. Once you've tried to dance in tight jeans with lots of ass poppin', locking, gliding & hip-hop routines that requires you to get low low low.. you'll understand the pain I went through. I definitely shed few kilos sweating and working it. In between sessions and after lessons we went to get drinks and just caught up. Then out of nowhere I was invited to chime along to watch a movie. The movie finished at 11:54pm, so by the time I got home it was like.. time to sleep! HAHA Damn the boys at the studios are fineeeee, man they just heat up the dance floor!

Boys who knows how to dance are such turn ons & not just any boys that dances, they got to know how to dance. I met a gym instructor today, so I guess I have someone that will help me get toned for summer & just in time, because I need it. LOL

So after reading JayQueen's latest blog, makes me think about him again.

Haven't heard from him at all today, once again I'm edging towards a stronger standing of my intuition. But oddly, I'm starting to get use to this all, I don't get that strange, insecure feeling when I feel like I'm not a matter to him anymore or not in his thoughts anymore.

It was a lot of effort trying to refrain myself from calling him when I was dying each moment without speaking to him, sometimes I would prank just to see if he would message back or sometimes I would send a message in hope that it would spark some sort of communication, but it didn't. So the message is clear and I give up to be the one trying, instead I am going to embrace what I have now and just cherish what I had then.

I was insecure, but now I figured, what am I insecure about? Being left behind? Well he's already left so why do I keep feeling insecure.

I have erased the bad memories of him and kept all the good ones closer to me, so now I only remember those days where I felt like the luckiest girl in the world, because he knew how to make me feel that way, those days where I had a reason to come home everyday after a tiring day, those days I didn't feel lonely or uncomfortable when I 3rd-wheel friends & their ❤, those days where I had his guidance, support and help when I needed it the most, those days I knew no matter what happened he was there for me to console, to rely upon and those days where I wake up with a smile knowing that another day awaits us to create new memories.

All we ever had, were numbered days, quite similar to JayQueen & her first love. It seems that first love all share one thing in common, the numbered days? Well if you don't already know, he was my first love, the greatest one & I know he will leave a lasting impression in my life, not only that he has set my standard and all my expectation for men, and because I am too lazy now, when I get the time I will narrate our fairytale #1O17 the story of our love and tragedy.. Maybe tomorrow =]

..But all our days we were physically together were numbered, making each and every moments so unforgettable, each word, each touch, each contact, each hug, each kiss more special. He was like someone I knew I wouldn't ever get sick of, he was someone I wanted to be with.. forever. His promise still resounds in my head, replaying like a recorded disc on repeat, I hear it, except it's all just empty promises, like beautiful melody with meaningless lyrics.

He's still strong in my memories, but I'm still on this long and laborious journey of letting go someone I thought I never had to..

Ok, I've had an amazing day so I do not want to ruin it by going all into details about him because the more I talk about it the more I think, point is, there are pros and cons for everything, somedays I see more of the cons, somedays like today I see more pros. Don't want to be worrying about tomorrow, I just want to live the moment as it comes, good or bad.. I'll deal with it!

& OMG loyal blog readers can be so distractive sometimes, sif keep rushing me! LOL

This is for you Bonniie, since you keep rushing! Not my fault if you come across a lot of errors and weird sentences =P

Don't forget to stay tuned, more to come.

5.28AM EST

Love oh so dearly,

Cynthia

Redeem Myself

In reference to JQ's blog, I couldn't agree more that it's quite a difficult to start the blogging habit. However, there's nowhere better to express one's emotion other than the blog, because there's no need to worry about who's listening, who's not & there's no interruption of thoughts excluding the external factors ie. people calling, brother running in & out of the room.. 

So let's start of with my day? Technically I don't have a day, I woke up at about 4pm... got out of bed and saw Edmund (My brother, for the people who don't know) home from school already.. So then found some food to eat, then mum made me food, then popped on msn for a while until Ana asked me to go out with her, so being bored and slightly depressed I thought Why not!. So whilst I was getting ready, Mr. Breathless calls me & so we had our conversation & like always put a smile on my face & it appears that he doesn't like my hair short either. Dammit I wanted to get it cut shorter today. But anyway FASTFORWARD I got my nails done, shopped, bumped into friends & headed home. Then at 1am I get another call from Mr. Comfort asking me to come out to eat Kebabs. HAHA x2 .. 

HAHA (if you're reading Mr.JT =P) but yeah...

Speaking of Mr.Breathless, I have to share this with you all, it's the best I've heard.

C: What? You going to watch strangers (the movie) before me! GAH! 

*: Maybe, but I would rather watch it with you any day

C: Hmmm, actually I don't think anyone would want to watch scary movies with me, cos I tend to get a big grippy & might end up suffocating you LOL ^^"

*: dw, I'm use to you taking my breath away

* - the person I left breathless -aka Mr. Breathless

aiueryoaILSHdoILiawyroawyeh.... ahhhs isn't that SOOO sweet?;

a) No. - Well guess you had to be there at the time

b) Yes. - HAHA x4 NO SHIT! 

But that's not the only reason why he's Mr. Breathless, but also because he once dedicated a song asking me "How do I breathe - Mario Barrett" (if you haven't already heard it, it's a song worth downloading). Thus, the breathing difficulty he suffers over and over again gives him the nickname. iJOKE, I am so funny huh! ;] 

Anyways, so back to thoughts & regarding the title.. 

i NEED to redeem myself from the  case of the EX
So many hard decisions to make & each day I come closer to believing something I've tried so hard to convince myself that woulnd't be a possibility.. yet, each morning (more like afternoon LOL) I wake up more disappointed than the day before...

Mmm, before I continue, immerse into my feelings & K.O I'm gonna go make myself a milk tea & get ready for bed! 

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Okay, I'm back & its 6:30AM =____=  I might as well start another blog. 

HAHA but then what difference does it make.. 

So many people keeping me up tonight! 

HAAAA check this: 'Drunken mind speaks a sober heart' quoted by Bonniie.  

TEEHEE, I keep sidetracking but anyways...

I know I always wanted him to be happy with or without me, but selfishly, now I don't want him happy unless it was with me. 

I haven't heard from him & maybe he is forgetting me, I should let him because I know it's better for us this way, but at the same time I wish he didn't. 

I am constantly reminded that it's better he leaves me first because then I can move on without feeling I might be at loss with my decision, 'take this as an opportunity for you to take a step without guilt' and I'm told. It's just not that easy for me cos it's hard to wait around for something that might never happen, but it's even harder to give up when its everything I have ever wanted.

He didn't believe in the love I gave him & after being told, I couldn't help myself to start doubting my love for him.. It's only times like these do I know that the love I had for him was beyond what he felt and what I expected. 

Now, my intuition tells me that my significance diminishes in his life by the days that passes by, and though its hard to believe, I find it harder not to believe it. 

I am in no rush and so I guess the decision doesn't need to be rushed.

I know in time, truth will inevitably surface and love will prove it's worth. 

But even impelled by my conscience, I stand here constrained by the lingering memories left behind by him.. 

Ah I will continue this blog when I redeem my energy! =D So I leave with this.. 

The depth of life will dim my temptation to live for you,

If I were to be alone silence would rock my tears

So I put my arms around you, around you,

And I know that I'll be leaving soon..

My eyes are on you they're on you.

- Dancing by Elisa 

& nOoo I am NOT emo you faggots! Cheer up MY ASS! I'm always happy!

Sun has risen, I smell the MORNING. Time to sleep!

Good Morning to y'all & Goodnight to me,

Cynthia

C. CLiCK to a new chapter

Will you still love me in the morning?

Forever & ever babe.. 

=[ Makes me think about him, cos it was our first movie tgt ~ sighs

Every time I hear his name, I stay quiet but thousand images flash through my head,

His voice left me breathless, but now, my throat tightens and my lungs closes in

His words touched my soul so deep it hurt, but now, it aches constantly within.

His lingering eyes stared deep in mine, but now, action speaks louder than the words said,

He filled the emptiness, but now, I am nothing but empty..

Love was him. He has left, so has love.

BUT ON THE UPSIDE.. 

EXAMS ARE FCUK™IN OVER ! extra-extra long weekend!

But everyone is being a lazy bum these day & NOT celebrating with me =[

Today was quite fun though, exam wasn't so bad.. 

[kinkii aySn] reunited today in bed ;] HAHA

HAHA another highlight of the day, we waited outside Strathfield station for an hour deciding what to do & we decided to go back mine to get money but we ended up spending the afternoon here at mine =) bwahah

Sorry my language is slightly more colloquial than Jacqueline's & it's how I like it =D

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♥ Cynthia

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